Engaging in life with my whole heart
Oftentimes I feel like I am waiting, waiting for something. What is this something? I am not sure. Is it the perfect, ideal moment? Am I waiting for myself to be perfect before I plunge into all that is life? Come to think of it, sometimes I feel like most of my life has been one long wait...for something.
And so I live with much hesitation because this waiting holds me back. I live as if I were just a spectator of life rather than the one living it. Sometimes I feel like a soldier in the midst of war, who instead of engaging in battle, retreats and hides...in fear. Instead of engaging in all that is life, my heart retreats and hides.
Oh Lord, help me find my heart and bring it out of hiding into the fullness of life, into the fullness of who you are.